rewilding #96 truth

Compelled to journal about TRUTH this evening, I felt into where, what, how, when, why:

where do I feel TRUTH in this moment—chest
what—hurt & needs
how—feel & express
when—now
why—it is time

Quite painful to actually look at TRUTH.

xoxo amrutaa
photo: striking rainbow, bringing in the new year

rewilding #95 movement

Moving through mental stuckness requires so much effort. It is interesting how I have experienced this as “pain” in the body. What has always helped me, and continues to help me—movement. 

Grateful these souls wanted to ride today.

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Casey, Erica, Vu, moving together 

rewilding #94 envisioning

Sitting in a coffee shop envisioning 2025 was beautiful, with deep thoughts/writing around these pieces flowing easily:

Love & Friendship, CO Exploration, Roots, Nourishment, Plastics b-gone, Spiritual mash up, Music, Yoga Teaching/Massage, Retreats/Book, Adventure

xoxo amrutaa
photo: exploring Lafayette, CO

rewilding #93 hanumas 2024

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Bobby, Amy, Taali, Emily

rewilding #92 love

A friend sent this photo to me today and reminded me of the profound ways we all intertwine and show each other love.   

Dani reminded me of many beautiful memories as well as gratitude for hosting his delightful family on many occasions. On one occasion we played Jenga and hula-hooped with his son Alexander, after singing Christmas songs with Sweet Mama playing the piano. What a joy to remember our love in this way. 

So grateful. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Christmas Eve service, Lawrence, KS with Sweet Mama, Dani, and his lovely wife

rewilding #91 hanumas

Christmas & Hanukah fall on the same day this year—seems auspicious.  

As I consider what feels meaningful to celebrate this week, the answer (again & again) is connection. If you are reading this, I am grateful for our deep connection. 

With dear Taali joining for “Hanumas,” I have been wondering how to offer her a warm welcome. Tonight we decided that we will make latkes and sit by the Christmas tree. So sweet. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Potato Latkes for “Hanumas” (a Hanukah & Christmas coming together…we commented pretty simultaneously that our favorite part of that combo is it sounds like Hanuman!)

rewilding #90 unexpected inspiration

I did not want to set my alarm last night, and I also did not want to drive to Boulder to practice this morning. 

That being said, I am so glad I did. Preconceived notions were just preconceived notions. 

Unexpected inspiration. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Boulder Zen Center Saturday practice (meditation/dharma talk/Q&A/tea & cookies)

rewilding #89 exercise!!!

Offering myself grace as I slowly ease into anything beyond work has been my daily practice. 

I have gone 2 weeks with almost no exercise. This has been weird and horrible, and I’ve been irritable and exhausted.

Today I was released from work at 12:30pm and holy hallelujah decided to spontaneously run 6.5 miles, enjoying 45 minutes of uphill to start. IT. FELT. SO. GOOD. Just found out that I more or less have about 2 weeks off. Guess what I’ll be doing?!

Exercise!!!

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Heil Valley Ranch trails

rewilding #88 the poetess

Tonight I asked each of the devi (goddesses) in Sanskrit/mantra class ‘what does it mean to embody the goddess?’ Wildly different answers amongst some uncertainty. I believe this is a very important question for women to embrace—body, mind, and beyond. 

A friend and I pulled 7 oracle cards with a variety of aspects of the Divine Feminine. We are meditating on one a day from full moon to Solstice.

Today is Sappho who embodies the deep love, admiration, and sensuality between women. She was referred to in antiquity as the 10th muse and the Poetess, just as Homer was referred to as the Poet. She was one of the few known female poets of the ancient world and her poetry was publicly burned bc of its erotic nature.

Inspired by her courage, sensuality, and expression. Jai Devi! 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Sappho–The Poetess: I love every inch of my body. And I love the women in my life fiercely. 

rewilding #87 pushing through exhaustion

COMPLETE—full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Well, damn, I missed blogging the final 5+ days of the full moon challenge, but it turned out to be an A+ challenge. Pushing myself to grow opened many doors; rekindling old relationships and creating new ones… with others AND most importantly with myself. 

After 8 days (feels more like 8 years!) of working a full-time job, I felt so empowered today treating my first patient. I giggled, clapped, and jumped for joy—all while pushing through exhaustion. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: yogi tea quote

rewilding #86 40 hours

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 24-25: Never thought I’d be able to say that I absolutely love my 40 hours/week job.

These last two days have offered some of the most growth oriented learning (via work) I’ve ever had. So deeply grateful for this opportunity. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: some light lunchtime reading ; p

rewilding #85 long & strong

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 22-23: LONG & STRONG

You know when you say you are going to do the thing and then you do it. That feels so good and often pushes me beyond my comfort zone—always growth on the other side of that. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: 40 mile ride from Longmont to Boulder Reservoir and back, Longmont Bicycle group ride

rewilding #84 first times

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 21: celebrating first times

Yesterday, after spontaneously receiving/accepting the job offer, the team invited me to their annual Xmas party. We often take ‘first times’ for granted and I did not today. What a gift to be invited and share this time with new colleagues. 

I haven’t started work yet (Monday is my first day…), and at the party the doctor handed me a small/meaningful Xmas bonus check and expressed gratitude for my willingness to be a part of this work family. WOW. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Sforno Trattoria Romana, Boulder CO

rewilding #83 tenacity

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 20: tenacity prevails

Post networking event this morning at the Boulder Chamber of Commerce, I decided to spontaneously pop into a medical office. After a delightful conversation about holistic healing, the doctor hired me on the spot, and I start a full-time salaried position on Monday. WHOO HOO!!!

Please say hello to a Physical Medicine Assistant (Manual Therapist) at Creekside Physical Medicine (multidisciplinary pain management). 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Tenacity Dr, Longmont CO

rewilding #82 in review

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 19: reflecting and celebrating an ‘in review’ of the last few weeks

-still nourishing myself (ooh la la, this gluten free veggie quiche turned out amazing today!)
-practicing part or all of the Ashtanga Primary Series every day (yoga asana…)
-meditating 25 minutes every morning (non-negotiable start to the day)
-riding my bike/driving without GPS (this is a bleeping miracle)
-very intentional & thoughtful community building (looking for depth & heart)
-pushing myself to find meaningful work (definitely slacked a bit today as my bike/weather was too tempting)
-being silly, playful, and breaking the rules on occasion ; )
-enjoying music making (playing the ukulele is so sweet)

Pretty beautiful to continue encouraging daily growth & expansion. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: gluten free crust, 8 eggs, asparagus, tomatoes, basil

rewilding #81 heart opening

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 17&18: holy something 4 letters. The last 2 days I pushed myself to look for jobs for 4 hours a day. It was incredibly draining but do already have leads from that effort. 

I knew I needed to do something inspiring tonight so I dragged my butt to Boulder to attend a kirtan. I was pretty much pulling my own hair out the door to get there and am so glad I did. Heart opening and community building. I met two people (Keith & Moritz) I hope will be lifelong friends.
om namaḥ śivāya!

xoxo amrutaa
photo: e-Town Hall, downtown Boulder

rewilding #80 long & hard

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 16: today after a long-ish drive back from Breck, I pushed myself to get on my bike and ride long & hard. Delightful. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: mostly gravel ride; Longmont, CO

rewilding #79 breaking the rules

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 15: absolutely frowned upon; loved every adventurous second with this wild soul! 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: breaking the rules w/Mary Kaczor, Breckenridge CO

rewilding #78 warmth

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 14: this day was about expanding & growing warmth at home.

She has already gifted us so much warmth. Decorated only with foraged berries, dried grasses, and dehydrated oranges. Her name is yet to be known, and her light shines brightly. 

xoxo amrutaa
photo: Blue Ribbon Farm, ‘Charlie Brown’ tree

rewilding #77 compassion

Full moon to full moon (11/15 - 12/15), pushing myself in news ways each day to grow & expand. 

Day 13: all the signs pointed to compassion today. This morning I walked by the ‘Tower of Compassion’ and then immediately passed a Tibetan woman chanting ‘om mani padme hum’ with a mala. 


That being said, I am also grateful to have witnessed palpable fear. Many queer friends have shared (from afar) what a terrifying moment in time this is for them. Today I saw the horror in the eyes of a new friend. Stepping into compassion meant deep clear listening and tender loving care. OM MANI PADME HUM

xoxo amrutaa
photo: she/they/she, Longmont CO